OK what does that really mean?

we say Ok for many different things. The state, but I'm not really talking about it in that sense. "that'd be ok", "ok I'll do that", "I'm doing ok", "I'm feeling ok". Why can't we say "that'd be good (or not)", "yes, (or no) I'll do that", "I'm doing fine (or bad)", "I'm feeling good (or like crap)". I don't know about you but generally when I say ok it is because I don't want to tell someone I feel like crap, or that I don't really want to do something but I don't know how to tell them no, etc.

A few days ago I went with my roomies to the birmingham museum of art. We had a good time. But I walked into the japan room and started feeling odd. I then walked into the china room and had to walk away from them b/c I started to cry. I started thinking of the lost in china, and the people we worked with last year, and how much I was looking forward to this year, and how much I want to go back and share with these people (not just Jesus). I walked around the room, millions of feelings rushing upon me, I didn't and still don't understand them. I hadn't realized how much have changed in this last semester. I was so focused on foreign missions and knew what I wanted to do with my life, what I though Daddy wanted to do with my life. This year, I'm so focus on my youth and everything but Jesus... honestly.... I've let those dreams slip away. The heart I had is but isn't there anymore. My dream of having an orphanage in China is just a thought (attitude) of if it happens ok if not ok, instead of my it will happen and I can't wait attitude.

And I'm sure your curious how all that ties together, well my friends it does let me assure you. Weeks ago when I withdrew from the CIC trip I said I was "ok with it" and while at the museum I started to think about that and what it really meant and how I really felt about it. And what I meant when I said "ok" b/c as previously stated I usually say ok when I have no feeling or don't really want to tell you how bad it really is.

So my challenge for you today is to be honest, to be bold. Say it how it is? If you feel like crap say so, if you don't want to do something don't do it.