well, well, well.

I'm not sure what to think or what to say. All I know is one day we're best friends the next, you hate me, and the next we talk every know and then. I don't understand. Is it a constand struggle with PMS. Ok no but really! I just needed to write that down.

I Need to do homework! SERIOUSLY!

Happy EASTER!

Ok so a few months, I actually had completely forgotten I even had this site for a little bit. But don't fear I have remembered and am back.

Well, "how is life in the 'ham?" you ask. I shall tell you in one word. BUSY. I was reading my last post and realized how much has happened between now and then. Well, I started working at Student Life last week. In case you didn't know I will be doing summer camps with them this summer, duh. I will be on the Beach Team (actually we are the Aqua team but we do beach camps), meaning that I will be doing Student Life camps on the Beach. We will travel to I think 6 beaches, some of which are Daytona, Destin, South Padre, etc. I'm super pumped! I will be on the office staff, and because I live in Birmingham and the camp is based in b'ham I started last week so that we'd be ready for the summer. I LOVE IT! is an understatement. I have began to get to know several of my teammates, I know that we will have a great summer. It helps to easy the nerves of "what if they don't like me," "what if I can't do my job well," "what if" "what if" "what if". I have several times had some of them say "you are on the right team" which makes me feel really really good about the summer. I'm excited to see what all Dad does with us. One exciting thing that we will be getting to do is the biggest event that SL has ever hosted, by far. I think its almost up to 8,000 campers; crazy! I believe the previous biggest was 2,600 and I was actually a student staffer at that camp so its really cool that I get to be at this one too!

A really cool part of my specific job this summer will be to work with two of our music artist that will be with us every camp. I don't think you'll know who they are ;) : Shane and Shane and Bethany Dillon. I'm so pumped b/c I love them both a lot! Yeah so thats cool. I get to hang out with them and kinda be their contact, set up their rooms, etc.

So enough about that for today. ;) now that you all are sufficently jealous!

I originally had planned a post much different than what I have done, but this one is quite long so I will wait for another day to write what I had planned.

and a 5,6,7,8......

And I think this shall be a numbered post....

1) I think all I do anymore is study, hang out at kyle's/ kyle's parents house, or work at the church. Seriously my life is sad and pathetic!
2) I had to meet and spend time with Kyle's grandparents, I'm not sure why, but it was fun. And I think I love them already. They were making plans for their next trip to the great state of Alabama and were making sure that I'd be here so they could see me some more. I feel like they are my grandparents... but not quite. ha!
3) I know what your thinking after reading the previous two "bullets" (i'm not really sure what to call them) and the answer is no!He's like my twin and my best friend (I almost typed bf and that could have been bad! ha!)
4) I think my slight ocd is getting worse, this is what I did saturday....


yes thats right cleaned and organized my fridge! It was fantastic!
5) One of my roomates came back that night and saw it and so she thought she'd be funny and put the water on the "wrong" shelf, knowing it would bother me. It wanted to be with its friends. Ha jk! So I was just like can we put those with the rest of the water, she did and was like I didn't even realize, I was like thats cool, lets just stay organized for at least a day. we laughed and then she knocked over all of the bottles of water and ran away. So I had to pick them up. I was not a happy camper. ;)
6) I'm ready to know about SL but I'm not as "nervous" as I was last year. I have noticed some specific differences. - last year right after the interview I thought if I saw Roger and Earl ( the guys that do the interview) again that day or even a little after that I'd vomit or do something stupid. This year I'd love to see them to talk to them some more.
7) I think my friend is going to Russia, I don't know what I'll do with out him for a week. sad times. but good times
8) I've been doing homework all day its getting annoying and its the kind where you just need a break from b/c there is so much info to take in, but if you take the break you are tempted to not go back!
9) My homework that I'm currently attempting to finish is about textual critism of the Bible. I love to learn this stuff there is just a lot of info to process and then write a paper on. This book that we are reading right now is about how there are a lot of text that resemble the Bible/ the Bible resembles. And how the Bible may not be as unique as we tend to think it is. It lists a lot of ancient texts and shows how they are similar to passages in the Bible. Its really neet!
10) I saw end of the spear again last night. I think I cried more this time than last. And I want to see it again. I really want to read some books on it but there just isn't time.
11) my book list grows daily ( that is books I want and want to read)
12) We have Disciple Now this weekend. I'm excited to see how it goes and all the things that God is going to do with it.
13) I really need to get back to studying/ reading and writing a paper and then Hebrew and then some more reading.
14) I don't like to end on odd numbers... so I have a huge urge to play ghetto nintendo right now but I shall refrain b/c my roomate is watching tv and the aformentioned lots of homework. But I want to play some thing like "spiritual warfare" but I don't have it so I'll prolly settle for Dr. Mario if I end up playing which we all know I will b/c I"m rambling on about it for 3 ok now 4 lines. so I shall stop now.

have a blessed day tomorrow

lets just say....

lets just say God is Good! I mean really. He had my professor ask me the questions from the last post just in time. He continually amazes me at how much he loves me and how involved he is in my life. I had my Student Life interview yesterday, It went well! I enjoyed it I really wasn't nervous I had the most amazing phone call "pep talk" from a member of their staff that just decied to call me and make sure I knew how good my references were, and how much she would love to work with me this summer. It was incredible! And then as I began to get nervous on my walk over I got a some text messages from some people that were praying for me. God is INCREDIBLE! I love it! I'm so at peace with this and I feel like this is something I had to do weather I get it or not. I feel like me again, I know wierd, i'll explain more later. I must get back to work but I'll update soon on more of what happened!

i don't know....

Who am I?

What do I love?

These questions were asked of me in class today and I had absolutely no answer. Which is wierd that it was basically our whole discussion, b/c this is something I've been struggling with.

End of the Spear...

I thought I'd add a pic for a fun touch, I haven't done that in a while. This is a large chunk of the Westwood group at Passion06!

I saw End of the Spear last night... lets just say INTENSE! I was crying right before anything happened and not when it did happen, as a matter of fact Kyle's mom (who from here on will be called Paige b/c thats her name) afterwards was like "I was proud of you, you didn't cry at all." I suppose she was checking at the parts one would be expected to cry at. All this to say it was great, we plan on seeing it again soon!
I keep watching movies that have a similar theme, or reading books, articles that all intersect what the other is talking about and most have the same underlying theme. And they aren't things I pick to do, but stuff either I'm invited to, randomly go to, assigned to read, or randomly told I should read it. Its crazy.
I had a revelation yesterday that may mean nothing to you but was really cool for me. I tend to not let people get too close to me b/c I've been "stabbed in the back" by too many best friends (mainly the one I had from 6th grade until like sop year). So if you get close to that "possition" I start to stray away. I somewhat realized I had been doing this for a few years but not quite fully realized it. Well, before I left Texas and moved to Birmingham I started to realze this and hoped and prayed for the "best friend" that I could actually tell things to, want to hang out with a lot, etc... you know the "BFF" role! (ha) A week or so ago I was hanging out with one of my students and we started talking and she made some comment about Kyle that had to do with him being my best friend. And I was kinda wierded out by that. And then I started thinking about it. We've struggled to actually define our relationship b/c we're friends but more than just hang out buddies, and we work together, and I'm basically a memeber of his family now. And then last night at the movies, we went with his parents "sunday school class" ( they really don't have one b/c Les is the pastor but people their age that they do stuff with), well they had all gone on a cruise this past summer and were getting everybody together to catch up. When he introducecd me to people it was, "this is Tiffany, my best friend, my twin" and it all clicked. My prayers had been answered and I hadn't even realized it. I was a cool moment but then I had to laugh at myself. It was great.
Ok so I realize that God has given us dreams, and the ability to fulfill the dreams he has placed in us. For years I've had a "dream" that I wasn't sure what it was. (I'm not sure that is the best way to put it) This August dad placed a vision for a ministry that I really didn't understand. I didn't know how it would work out. I don't do the whole public speaking thing very well, I'm now starting to think its b/c I never have. And its a matter of getting comfortable up there and it will be ok. I'm getting better, I'm having more of a desire to learn and get on stage and "share" and yeah. But excited to see where this will go. One thing that has come to my attention whilst pondering all this is that I had always had a passion for youth and seeing them grow, but suppressed it b/c I was told I could never do that and I was really good with kids (which I am but still, I think I love my youth job much more than little kids). And now I'm in a job that I absolutely love, working with youth when I was told I wouldn't be that good at it, that it wasn't my area, that I didn't have a future in that area.
I turned in my camp application yesterday. I'm kinda nervous but not as nervous as I expected to be. I know its out of my hands. Now on the day of my interview I will be a nervous wreck but thats another story. That is one area you can be praying about where I'm supposed to be this summer. Camp, with my students, AFRICA ;)!
Time to finish some homework, prepare for next week's d'now, and cook some suppa! I've become so domestic, I cook a lot and like it, I use my crockpot all the time, I got up this morning and cleaned, it was disgusting. HA! and then I went to target and looked at kitchen stuff and shopped for groceries. HOMEWORK TIME.... I believe it is time to read about textual critcism and the bible. I feel this class is going to give me lots to talk about on here.

This is for GLORRRRY....

This is for Glory.... His Glory.

The lines of this song are resonating in my head. I can't stop thinking about them. Every time I had somewhat of a moment to think today all I could think/ hear in my head was "this is for Glory, His Glory." And I realize that everything we do is for Glory, for glory of money, ourselves, others, or His Glory. Ultimately we as followers of the word want it to be His Glory. But how often really is it for His glory, and not our own. I have to constantly remind myself as I do my rockstar job on Wednesdays in youth I have to say this is for His Glory. I have to remind myself of this constantly when I get frustrated with my youth, or with my fellow staff.


On another note we are totally revamping our college and career ministry and renaming it and redoing how we do things. We are completely throwing everything out and starting over. I have struggled with the fact that I have the gift of administration, in my early years I thought it meant I was going to have to go into like school administration which is like the thing I most do not want to do ever. But I associated this with what my mom does (school administration) b/c well the word connection, and I also have a gift of teaching so I thought that is what it must mean. But I have discovered that the "college guy" and the "youth guy" can't do the administration side of what we do. The youth guy hasn't really admitted it, but the college guy has embraced it and is seeking help. I'm seeing why daddy lead me to where he did. But all that to say I'm really excited about all that is going on and the things I get to do to help it get started.
right now some of our name options that I"m trying to back in the word and we're praying over to see if that is the "direction" He wants us to take. some of them are and if you want to give feed back please do

Fount (this one is may favorite, but we are calling what used to be Sunday school the well so I'm thinking it may be too much the same)
Square One - in all that we are going through in the age group of 18-25 we need to constantly go back to square one and what the foundation of our lives is built on.

ok enough for now... I'll leave you with this...

"For you created my inmost being, You knit me together in my mother's womb. I Praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made, your works are wonderful I know that full well." Psalm 139:13-14