End of the Spear...

I thought I'd add a pic for a fun touch, I haven't done that in a while. This is a large chunk of the Westwood group at Passion06!

I saw End of the Spear last night... lets just say INTENSE! I was crying right before anything happened and not when it did happen, as a matter of fact Kyle's mom (who from here on will be called Paige b/c thats her name) afterwards was like "I was proud of you, you didn't cry at all." I suppose she was checking at the parts one would be expected to cry at. All this to say it was great, we plan on seeing it again soon!
I keep watching movies that have a similar theme, or reading books, articles that all intersect what the other is talking about and most have the same underlying theme. And they aren't things I pick to do, but stuff either I'm invited to, randomly go to, assigned to read, or randomly told I should read it. Its crazy.
I had a revelation yesterday that may mean nothing to you but was really cool for me. I tend to not let people get too close to me b/c I've been "stabbed in the back" by too many best friends (mainly the one I had from 6th grade until like sop year). So if you get close to that "possition" I start to stray away. I somewhat realized I had been doing this for a few years but not quite fully realized it. Well, before I left Texas and moved to Birmingham I started to realze this and hoped and prayed for the "best friend" that I could actually tell things to, want to hang out with a lot, etc... you know the "BFF" role! (ha) A week or so ago I was hanging out with one of my students and we started talking and she made some comment about Kyle that had to do with him being my best friend. And I was kinda wierded out by that. And then I started thinking about it. We've struggled to actually define our relationship b/c we're friends but more than just hang out buddies, and we work together, and I'm basically a memeber of his family now. And then last night at the movies, we went with his parents "sunday school class" ( they really don't have one b/c Les is the pastor but people their age that they do stuff with), well they had all gone on a cruise this past summer and were getting everybody together to catch up. When he introducecd me to people it was, "this is Tiffany, my best friend, my twin" and it all clicked. My prayers had been answered and I hadn't even realized it. I was a cool moment but then I had to laugh at myself. It was great.
Ok so I realize that God has given us dreams, and the ability to fulfill the dreams he has placed in us. For years I've had a "dream" that I wasn't sure what it was. (I'm not sure that is the best way to put it) This August dad placed a vision for a ministry that I really didn't understand. I didn't know how it would work out. I don't do the whole public speaking thing very well, I'm now starting to think its b/c I never have. And its a matter of getting comfortable up there and it will be ok. I'm getting better, I'm having more of a desire to learn and get on stage and "share" and yeah. But excited to see where this will go. One thing that has come to my attention whilst pondering all this is that I had always had a passion for youth and seeing them grow, but suppressed it b/c I was told I could never do that and I was really good with kids (which I am but still, I think I love my youth job much more than little kids). And now I'm in a job that I absolutely love, working with youth when I was told I wouldn't be that good at it, that it wasn't my area, that I didn't have a future in that area.
I turned in my camp application yesterday. I'm kinda nervous but not as nervous as I expected to be. I know its out of my hands. Now on the day of my interview I will be a nervous wreck but thats another story. That is one area you can be praying about where I'm supposed to be this summer. Camp, with my students, AFRICA ;)!
Time to finish some homework, prepare for next week's d'now, and cook some suppa! I've become so domestic, I cook a lot and like it, I use my crockpot all the time, I got up this morning and cleaned, it was disgusting. HA! and then I went to target and looked at kitchen stuff and shopped for groceries. HOMEWORK TIME.... I believe it is time to read about textual critcism and the bible. I feel this class is going to give me lots to talk about on here.